Don't you feel the worst when your bf went out with your roomate to watch a musical and lied to you abt it?  Don't you just feel downright shitty abt it? And now you are living with that roomate. No matter what, deep inside, i just can't forgive the both of them even though i still loved him and even though i think my roomate wasn't the one who asked him out. You just can't help feeling those emotions. And no matter how nice they are to you in the future, you just can't forgive they completely...

I want to become Empress Wu Zetian, cause i think she is the most coolest woman on Earth. And to me relationships are futile unless u want to settle down completely...Play your game well

I feel the urge to write about East Timor after viewing an article posted at Yahoo. It says, "East Timor votes for President after crisis." Resemblance? Yes, so similar to Singapore, 100 points to those who noticed, yay! Even though i am an Indonesian, i highly doubt that any of my opinions below are of any consequence of biasedness for one's country. You can really highlight the major similarities between these two independence-seeking nations. Well, apart from the fact that one is highly successful and the other one is not, we can assume that both are considered small nations, only people as their resources, blablabla. However, one should consider that Singapore was a British colony, and along with it came all the infrastructure, knowledge, education and connections. Timor Timur was, on the otherhand, a part of Indonesia, a developing country. When we say that Singapore had nothing to start out with, they actually meant "nothing" as raw resources, but they forgot to include the infrastructure, culture, education and connections that the British brought for them during the colonization period. We even had no basis to compare these two nations as they started out so differently, yet ironically, they are at some major points similar. If forced, comparing these two nations is like comparing a poor man in Singapore to a poor man in India, in which the extent of discrepancy of both status percieved to be the same was actually extremely great. Even then, Singapore didn't want to be independent. They were regarded as "competitive" by the Malaysians and had to be "kicked out"of the "competition". No, Singapore didn't want to leave and it was so bad that PM Lee, Singapore's first prime minister actually burst into tears in front of the national television (another historical event that young Singaporeans would almost immediately associate it with Merger and Seperation). And here we have East Timor, dying for independence that they even "cried" for independence, sacrificing thousands of lives. Their "patriotism" so thick and viscous that they even fought with their brothers for a seperation. I am an Indonesian and i can't even tell the difference between an Acehnese or a Timorese or even a Javanese apart from the language that they speak, moreover those Portuguese people that can't even tell the difference between Chinese and Malays? (I forgot to mention that the Timorese were backed by the Portugals, who are having trouble maintaining their asses in this globalized economy). East Timor had virtually nothing except for its poor people and a couple shreds of maybe percieved as "intelligent" people, some burnt soil and destroyed houses here and there. With all the odds against them, i could only that they ought to have seen it coming, for no one in the right and "smart" mind would be sensible enough to strike for independence in times of crises and trouble, leading only to more protests and riots. I sincerely hope that East Timor can pull itself out of trouble, and by that time, i ope i still have the chance to be impressed, which i highly doubt so.